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“But I can’t have an eating disorder BECAUSE…”

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“I eat too much!”
There is no maximum calorie limit for eating disorders. An eating disorder is not about what you eat, but how you eat- your feelings/thoughts about your body and your intake.

“I’m not underweight!”
The majority of people who develop an eating disorder will never become underweight. The only disorder that is diagnosed based partially on weight is anorexia- and for that, if you’re an average weight but meet every other criteria, you’ll still be diagnosed with ‘atypical anorexia nervosa’. It doesn’t mean you aren’t sick or that you don’t need help.

“I don’t meet the anorexia/bulimia guidelines!”
OSFED (formerly known as EDNOS) is not a ‘failed’ eating disorder. It is every bit as serious as anorexia or bulimia. It is also the most commonly diagnosed eating disorder, meaning more people have this than anorexia or bulimia.

“I don’t make myself sick!”
Vomiting is only one form of purging. You can have bulimia, anorexia or OSFED/ARFID and not make yourself sick.

“I still eat!”
So does everybody else. You can’t photosynthesise, after all. Even people with eating disorders eat.

“I feel like a fake/ a fraud!”
So does basically every single other eating disordered person. This is a really, really, really, really common feeling. You might feel guilty for ‘misleading’ other people into believing the problem is more serious than it is, or feel like you’re overblowing things. That’s totally normal and it is not true. You are not a fake or a fraud.

“I eat things that no real anorexic would eat!”
I have known eating disordered patients with these safe foods: chocolate, frozen meat pizza, fruit, ice cream cones, potatoes, granola
I have known eating disordered patients with these fear foods: : chocolate, frozen meat pizza, fruit, ice cream cones, potatoes, granola
Safe/fear foods are not based on logic or reason. They are individualised. There are even people who don’t have any fear foods- they’ll eat anything, they’ll just feel crappy and purge it/ restrict afterwards. All of the experiences described here are those of a person with an eating disorder.

“I’ve never been inpatient!”
Neither have most eating disorder sufferers.

“I’ve never been tube fed!”
Neither have most eating disorder sufferers.

“I’ve never been near death!”
Neither have most eating disorder sufferers.

“My blood work/ blood pressure is fine!
Eating disorders affect different bodies in different ways. Some people find their blood work suffers; others find their blood pressure or pulse dips; others find that, whilst they’re suffering hugely mentally, their bodies hold up well. This is not a measure of how ‘sick’ you are. All of these things- weight, bp, pulse etc- are just symptoms of the sickness. The sickness is in your head.

“I don’t feel sick enough.”
You never will. Sorry. “I’m not sick enough!” is one of the most common ED thoughts there is; please don’t listen to it. It is a lie. Do not compare your misery to someone else’s; nobody with stage I cancer says ‘yeah, but that person is a stage III, so I’m not really that bad and I won’t get any treatment yet’.

“I still get my period!”
‘Period loss’ has been removed from the DSM as necessary for a diagnosis of anorexia, and no other eating disorder requires it. It was viewed as a flawed measure of illness, and so it has been removed. Whether or not you get your period is not an indication of how ill you are.

“But I binge eat without throwing up”
Binge eating disorder is a newly added eating disorder in the DSM, where people eat large amounts of food in an ‘out of control’ manner but then do not compensate inappropriately for it. It is very much a real eating disorder.

“I don’t calorie count/ weigh myself!”
I know many people with eating disorders- including anorexia- who have never calorie counted, or who don’t own a pair of scales. It’s not required for diagnosis.

“I think about food all the time!”
This is a symptom of an eating disorder. Malnutrition causes the brain to focus 100% of its attention on food- finding it, getting it, eating it. Daydreaming or fantasizing about food does not mean you are not sick; quite the opposite, in fact.

“But I enjoy eating!”
Most people do. Eating is enjoyable. Even in the depths of my restriction, the food I ate brought me great pleasure. It’s linked to the previous point, to a certain extent. Enjoying food does not mean you don’t have an ED.

“But this is just how I am!”
Eating disorders often start in early childhood, and it can be hard to break out of a pattern that well-entrenched. It’s not impossible, though. Chronic eating disorders can be harder to beat, but they can be beaten.

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(part of Mental Health Awareness week)

For more information on eating disorders and what to do if you think you have one, visit

www.b-eat.co.uk

www.webiteback.com

http://www.something-fishy.org

NHS- overcoming eating disorders

www.joyproject.org

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NEDA helpline: (800) 931-2237

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The brutal unfiltered truth about anorexia

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(Some of this may apply to bulimia as well)

1. It doesn’t matter what size you are while dealing with this disorder, most likely with in your first month or so of restricting food and or fasting for long periods of time, you will get cold very easily due to lack of iron in your blood and bruise easier as well.

2. Your hair will most definitely start to fall out at some point (most likely later into your disorder).

3. Your nails will become flimsy and break easy and some people may even experience some discoloration.

4. Due to lack of nutrients in your body, because of restricting, you will have terrible “poop cramps” because you don’t have enough fiber to actually pass a bowel movement.

5. Ever had a really bad flu and remember feeling super dizzy and nauseous when you stand up and everything goes fuzzy and black for a moment? Well guess what? You’ll experience this all the time just standing up makes you feel weak.

6. How’s your eye site? Well you want to start restricting? Say hello to some glasses, because your vision will slowly start to get blurry.

7. You like sleep right? So do I. But you see, I haven’t been able to sleep like a normal person since grade six when I was diagnosed with chronic insomnia due to, let me see, not eating enough.

8. Remember when you used to have so much fun with your friends during the summer, and being able to run around and play sports, or even just go for a really cool adventurous walk? Yeah well you can say goodbye to that too because chances are you’ll be way to weak/tired/hungry to do that without getting winded.

9. Remember holidays? Yeah like Christmas and thanks giving and all that food? Now those are your least favorite days in the year, because all you’ll be doing is counting all the calories in your food and spend the rest of the night sitting in the bathroom contemplating on purging or not (even though all you had was 300 calories)

10. If you think that this disorder is a “diet” or fad, that you can just get away with, you’re sadly mistaken. If you have not yet developed an eating disorder or are looking for ways to “become anorexic” please look back, get out of all the “pro ana” searches, and live your life healthily. You do not want to suffer like this. This is not a way to live.

Please add other things you can think of.

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NEDA helpline: (800) 931-2237

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Tips & Tricks MASTER POST

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Three Main Rules

Dinner must be eaten by 7 pm, after that there is no food consumed until 7 am at the earliest. (Basically, it’s like a 12 hour fast, meaning that if you live by this rule for a year you have fasted half the year!!)
Three hours must pass between the last time you ate and the time you go to bed. This ensures that you are actively burning calories while the food is initially digesting versus when you are sleeping and burning basically nothing.
Weigh yourself two times a day. One at night before you go to sleep, and once after using the bathroom in the morning. (This is more a self-esteem booster, you are always thinner in the morning.)

General Tips

B6 and B12 will speed up your metabolism.
Purge in the Toilet, never the shower or sink.
If you’re about to binge chew gum and look at your fat.
Drink a glass of water every hour.
Eat at least one meal every day.
Take caffeine tablets.
Brush your teeth.
Always have Sugar-Free gum around.
Sleep at least 6 hours, any less and it stimulates your appetite by 15%.
When you sit, fidget. It might not burn a lot, but it’s more than if you are just sitting still.
Fake allergies.
Hit your stomach when it’s grumbling.
Try to eat when people are around.
Associate food with feeling sick.
Never eat anything without nutrition labels.
Save one dollar for every meal you don’t eat and buy yourself a present.
Take a bath/shower.
Always take your vitamins.
Know when your trigger binge time is and avoid it.
Drink water!!! (This is super important, okay.)
Watch yourself eat.
Listen to loud music.
Spinning yourself in circles decreases hunger.

Additional Tips

Eat more negative calorie foods like fruits and vegetables. they’ll keep your digestive system moving with fewer calories.
Drink lots of water, as you already should be doing, this way your body will be well hydrated, and you will less likely become lethargic.
If you’re eating a few larger meals each day, try eating smaller bits of food more often, so if your eating 1 meal then make it two smaller one etc. Changing your caloric intake does not always mean decreasing! if your metabolism has slowed down, it may need some more calories to speed up a bit. Don’t overdo this, just try to increase by 10%, and when you passed the plateau, you decrease 10%.
You can also try a spike, this is when you eat regular meals for one day (should equal roughly 1500 cals) to jump start your metabolism, then simply return to your regular eating habits the next day.
Okay, so usually when you use a new shampoo, your hair will be so soft and shiny you’ll keep using the shampoo…but after a few weeks it doesn’t do anything special. It’s the same with exercising; your body will get the best out of a workout when it’s being challenged. So the first time you run a mile you may feel exhausted, your muscles might be sore and all of that…but if you keep running one mile each day for a week or two, your body will build more muscle, use those same muscles over and over while neglecting others, and won’t be as challenged. You should change either the length of time or intensity of your workout so you can challenge new muscles.

Facts & Tips

FACT: You can only purge up to 80% of calories consumed.

TIP: Avoid high caloric binges, instead eat things with a greater mass and fewer calories. Fruits and veggies are always a good choice.

FACT: Carbohydrate digestion starts in your mouth. Our salivary glands secrete amylase, which is a digestive enzyme that begins the breakdown of carbs.

TIP: Avoid eating carbohydrates at the beginning of the meal, because you’ll absorb more calories. Save the carbs for dessert.

FACT: Fat is digested in the small intestines and therefore you feel fuller after eating a high-fat meal.

TIP: Eat the fat first because it takes a long time to digest, therefore you’ll absorb fewer calories than eating carbs first. Beware, fat has twice as many kcals as carbs and proteins.

FACT: Laxatives do not affect calorie absorption Most food and calories are digested and absorbed in the small intestines and laxatives only affect the large intestines. Yes, you’ll lose weight, but the weight loss is from water and fecal matter.

TIP: Only use laxatives after a large meal that you did not purge afterward, this way you’ll see the real amount of weight gained instead of the fecal matter gained.

Hiding Your Habits

If you find you must go to a family or somewhat thing, get something reasonable like a muffin, and just carry it around with you.
Put dishes in the sink, leave evidence from what you’ve eaten.
Don’t forget to get rid of food you were supposed to eat.
Put your diet pills in a vitamin bottle.
Don’t tell people you think you are fat.

More Hiding Your Habits

Don’t raise suspicions, once people realize what you are doing, they’ll watch and monitor you every minute. Start hiding your habits and practices from day one, so no one has ever seen any of it. When one thinks your anorexic, there is nothing you can say to convince them you’re not.
Check the fridge when no one is around. Get some food, prepare it, and then throw it away. For example, some eggs.. get three eggs and some butter, bake the eggs, throw them on a plate with some bread, and then dispose of them. Leave silverware too!
Don’t ever talk about food with other people, they’ll think that your obsessed if you do this too much. And, talking about food may raise the question of you already ate. In case they do, have your excuses ready: ‘My stomach is upset’ ’ I’m to excited/nervous/busy etc. to eat’ ‘I don’t feel like….’ ‘I’m not hungry yet, I’ll get something later’
Spend different meals with different groups of people, tell them all that you had a big meal earlier or will be eating something later on. Make sure the different people will not be comparing notes. Or plan your schedule so you’re too busy at mealtimes to eat then.
Watch where you dispose of uneaten food or other “evidence”, make sure that it isn’t going to be seen or found by anyone. Wrap food up and throw it away outside the house. If you live alone, always take the trash out before anyone else comes over.
Buy food. People are fairly predictable. If they see you buy food and come home with food, then they just naturally assume that you eat it as well. Get things like crackers and cookies, keep them in your room, and carefully pack them out again later to throw away. Careful, this can be a little dangerous if you’re prone to binging and have trouble keeping food around, or if you feel guilty about throwing food away. If the food’s something you don’t like and won’t binge on this may be easier to do.
Don’t get angry. Don’t deny everything if confronted. People will believe a little truth with a big lie much easier than a huge lie. Act as if it’s no big deal instead of reacting emotionally and people will tend to believe you.
Tell people you’re on a diet, you became a vegetarian, your doctor has you eating only certain things, whatever. Often people will be very helpful in keeping you from eating if they think there’s a socially acceptable reason for it.
Don’t show off your weight loss until you’ve reached the weight you want to remain at. People will start to watch you more carefully and maybe ask questions, and you want to avoid calling attention to yourself.

Eating Less

Drink lots of water. When your stomach is full of water there’s no room for food!
Become a vegetarian, not just pretend. It gives you an excuse to not eat certain foods (helps with parents), and meat is high in fat anyway.
Fat-free chocolate milk is good for sweet cravings.
Set some rules for yourself.
Diet pills. Might be dangerous, so don’t go overboard
When you get the urge to snack. Start cleaning! Use chemicals for the gross smell to help curb hunger.
Sugar-free gum is still your best friend.
Don’t eat out!!
Don’t eat anything you don’t know the nutritional value of.
Drink lots of tea.
Chew your food until it dissolves.
Sparkling water, or Crystal Clear. It fills you up more.

Diets

There are numerous diets out there, we’ve all seen them. If you can stick to them, then they’re sure to work. Personally, I’ve done both the ABC, 2468, and the Sacred Heart Diet. Currently, I am doing the ABC diet, which is by far my favorite, of course, every body is different and others might work for you.

The 2468 Diet:

Day 1: 200 Calorie Intake
Day 2: 400 Calorie Intake.
Day 3: 600 Calorie Intake.
Day 4: 800 Calorie Intake.
Day 5: 0 Calorie Intake. (Fast.)

Some people do a 600-calorie maximum, and some don’t fast. Taking the max from 800 to 600 will make your average metabolic rate lower, and cutting out the fast will not allow you to fully capitalize on the heightened metabolic rate that you’ll have after consuming 800 calories the previous day. Therefore, the standard 2468 probably works the best. Though some people even fast for two days at the end. It’s all up to you.

Sacred Heart Diet:

It’s basically a soup you eat for 7 days. It’ll clean your system of impurities and gives you a feeling of well-being.

Recipe:

1-2 cans of stewed tomatoes.
3+ large green onions.
1 large can of beef broth (no fat).
1 package Lipton Soup mix (chicken noodle).
1 bunch of celery.
2 cans of green beans.
2 pounds of carrots.
2 green peppers.

Cut the veggies in small to medium pieces.
Cover with water.
Boil for ten minutes.
Reduce to simmer and continue to cook until veggies are tender.
Season with salt, pepper, parsley, or even Worcestershire sauce.

This soup can be eaten anytime you are hungry during the week, eat as much as you want whenever you want. This soup will not add any calories, in fact, the more you eat the more you will lose. You may even want to fill a thermos in the morning if you will be away during the day.

Day One – Eat only soup and fruit today.
Day Two – All vegetables. No fruits at all. Soup!
Day Three – Soup, fruit, and veggies. If you haven’t cheated you should find yourself weighing 5-7 pounds less.
Day Four – Bananas and skim milk. At least three bananas, and drink as much milk as you possibly can. Eat the soup!!
Day Five – Beef and tomatoes. You may have 10 to 20 ounces of beef and a can of tomatoes. No more than 6 tomatoes. Soup too.
Day Six: Beef and veggies. Eat to your heart’s content. Keep eating the soup!
Day Seven: Brown rice, unsweetened fruit juice, and veggies. Make sure to keep eating the soup.

At the end of the 7th day, if you have not cheated on this diet, you should have lost 10-17 pounds. If you wish to do the diet again, stay off for two days before returning.

Eating Out

You can’t avoid it, sooner or later someone is going to want to take you to eat out, but there’s thing you can do to not eat more than you should.

Drink tons of water! This will leave less room in your stomach for your inevitable high-calorie meal.
Depending on who you’re with/what you’ll be able to get away with, push aside ½ of your meal and have the waitress box it up for you. (You can just throw it out later.)
Make a comment about how messed up your stomach so maybe you’ll have a salad or something.
Salads though!! They’re full of nasty calories in restaurants. Avoid salads with fried chicken, lots of cheese, and always ask for dressing on the side.
Never get the House Dressing, Ranch Dressing, or Thousand Island.
Lastly, if you’re at a restaurant with “dessert people”, get a more substantial meal. (If you are getting a salad or grilled chicken or add a side.) You just have to make sure that everyone sees you eat enough for it to be reasonable that you don’t have room for dessert.

Fasting Tips

On a day you plan to fast, make a list of things to do to keep yourself busy and your mind off food.
You’re going to want to rest the first three days.
You feel more emotional during a fast.
Prepare for the fast. Eat fruits and vegetables beforehand so you don’t get as hungry while fasting, raising the chances of a binge.
Carry around the gum, bullion cubes, or zero cal sodas.
When done with a fast, start with low calories (50-100) and slowly bring yourself back up to the regular intake.

Things To Do If You’re Starting To Get Hungry

Drink a glass of water quickly.
Drink some of a diet soda instead, and tell yourself it’s a meal.
Look at your body in a mirror. See all that fat?
Tell your body it’s confused. It’s not hungry it’s tired. Take a nap.
Clean.
Brush your teeth.
Paint your nails.
Put on lipstick or lip gloss.
Look at thinspo.
Watch episodes of Heavy or Intervention. (Might not be triggering for everyone.)
Watch a gory movie.
Craving a specific food? Google “fat person eating ____”. (Works every time for me, to be honest.)

More Distractions

Go on walks.
Search for health/nutrition info online.
Dance to music.
Clean your room.
Read a book.
Learn new things (finance, investing, balancing checkbooks, etc.)
Do that thing you were meaning to do forever.
Do a yoga or pilates video.
Study for a class.
Read about toxins and foods that build up in the digestive system.
Start writing a journal about things that aren’t calories.
Make a website/ mess around with Tumblr theme.
Movie fest!!
Volunteer somewhere.
Master your self-description.
Play with your pet.
Go to howstuffworks.com and have some fun.
Exfoliate.
Think about life.
Make bracelets and necklaces.
Read the newspaper.
Stop procrastinating and do that homework assignment!!
Watch some cool documentaries!!

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fun psychology fact:

when you have anorexia, the pleasure centers in your brain associated with food turn off. instead of eating and your brain being like “yay food! good! keep going”, your brain instead doesn’t light up all happy. and because it doesn’t get any happy chemicals, its reaction turns into “woah.. this isn’t right. something isn’t right. stop.”

that’s why people with anorexia can’t “just eat something”

that’s why, during a binge, your brain keeps screaming at you to stop, but you just keep eating and eating in the hopes of feeling that happiness.

that’s why recovery is so hard.

you’re not faking it. i’m not faking it. this is a real sickness. it’s chemical and biological. and it fucking sucks.

STAY SAFE. eat when you know you need to. be kind to yourself.

i’m here for you. i love you.

stay safe.

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I could have 0 followers and I would still post and reblog things on this blog every day. I don’t have this blog because I want attention. I want an outlet, a place where I can vent my problems and feel like I’m not alone in this weird problem I have. That’s what this is for me. Its not a promotion of anorexia. I’m not encouraging people. I’m doing this all for me and me only.

If you can’t understand that, unfollow me or block me.

If you feel triggered by my blog, unfollow me and block me.

If you feel like I’m promoting anorexia, unfollow me and block me.

If you feel like my problems are becoming your own, unfollow me and block me.

And mostly, if you feel like you want to be an asshole and make me feel threatened in the ONE PLACE I feel safe, FUCKING UNFOLLOW ME AND BLOCK ME INSTEAD OF BEING A DICK.

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DANGEROUS SYMPTOMS

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CAUSED BY EATING DISORDERS

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– white nail beds
– nausea
– itchy skin
– swollen abdomen
– yellowing skin/eyes
– fatigue
– confusion
– pale / clay-like / bloody / tar-like stool
– vomiting
– pain in the upper, righthand abdomen
– joint pain
– spider angiomas (coloured skin spots that resemble spiders, due to clotting issues)
– dark urine
– swollen legs / ankles
– bruising easily

Heart

– tachycardia (fast resting heart rate, over 100 beats per minute)
– bradycardia (slow resting heart rate, under 60 beats per minute) * note that a very high fitness level can cause a lower heart rate
– irregular heart rate
– if your heart rate is under 40, you could be in immediate danger, and remember that your heart rate will drop even further in sleep
– shortness of breath / shallow breathing
– chest pains
– fatigue
– dizziness
– swelling in ankles / feet / legs
– swollen abdomen
– choking sensation
– coughing up pink liquid / goop
– unable to concentrate
– sudden weight gain
– fainting
– palpitations
– feeling your own heart
– hearing your own heart
– chest / arm / sternum pain
– anxiety
– sweating
– vomiting
– lack of energy
– coughing up white

Kidneys

– vomiting / general nausea

– changed sleeping patterns / problems sleeping

– fatigue

– swelling of ankles / legs / feet / just general swelling

– hypertension (high blood pressure)

– shortness of breath

– itchiness

– chest pain

– metallic taste in mouth

– muscle cramps

– hyperkalemia (high levels of potassium)

– stiff joints

– less urinating than usual

– bloody / dark / foam-like urine

– confusion / mental fuzziness

– rashes

– leg pains

Osteoporosis (severe bone weakness)

– back pain

– bad posture

– weak bones (weak grip / bones fracture easily)

– receding gums and bone loss in jaw

– general pains in muscles or even bone

– dropping fitness levels

Cathartic colon (from laxative use)

– bloating

– abdominal pain

– chronic constipation

– intense feelings of fullness

– incomplete bowl movement / ‘fecal evacuation’

Hypokalemia (low potassium levels)

– weakness in limbs, especially the sort that causes numbness or cramping

– nausea

– vomiting

– bloating

– abdominal pain

– low blood pressure

– fainting

– physical numbness

– emotional changes

– palpitations

– excessive urination

– constant thirst

Other common side-effects of EDs

– muscle spasms, weakness or twitching (electrolyte imbalance– very common in bulimia, and can be very dangerous)

– anemia

– irregular menstrual cycles / infertility in women

– low blood sugar

– depression and other mood disorders may develop / worsen

– insomnia

– eye damage and diminishing vision

STAY SAFE. A COUPLE OF SYMPTOMS MAY NOT BE LIFE-THREATENING, BUT HAVING MULTIPLE FROM THE SAME ORGAN CAN BE.

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PSA: your BMI

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So, we all know that under 18 is considered underweight but then what? What when you’re under? Where can you safely go?

Under 15, there’s a risk of sudden cardiac arrest.
Under 13, your organs start to fail.
Under 12, death is imminent.

Keep in mind that everybody is different but anorexic people have been known to die during treatment once they reach 11. Some have survived for a while on a BMI of 9, but they ultimately died.

If you want to stay alive, stay over 15. Under that, you’re dying.

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My anorexia screaming at me while I binge: WheN WIll yoU leaRn? wHEn wILl You lEaRn? That YOUr acTiONs, hAVE coNsEQUenCes??!

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General Guide Lines

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Morning

Wake up 6am weekdays, 9am weekends
Bathroom
Weigh in, log number
Stretch
Drink water
Wash face and body well
Get dressed
Eat oats and tea
Brush teeth
Makeup, hair
Leave

School

During School:

Drink two bottles of water - log all deadlines and tasks
Work hard in classes
Study on breaks - only eat a banana (and almonds on p.e days)
Talk to people and be social and nice
Only use phone for music outside of class
Always do homework and study for tests in time
Only acceptable grade is E (Highest grade)
Study each day

Evening

Put out clothes for the next day
Pack bag for the next day
Check notebooks and journal
Stay busy and don’t binge

Eating

Never eat over 1 000 calories a day
At least 10 000 steps a day
Walk everywhere possible
Drink 4 bottles of water a day
Stay busy / out of the house to avoid eating
Stay away from food
Always carry and use sugar free gum
Chew each bite 30 times
Eat slowly
Stick to food rules
Log everything
Look at thinspo every day, and update your blog
Always fidget

Organising

Plan everything
Use calendar, always
Space should always be clean and tidy
Everything should be organised
Always save money
Plan what you’re going to spend money on
Make to - do lists for everyday and complete everything

Prevention

Brush teeth to avoid eating
Snap a rubber band around wrist when I want to eat
Clean something when hungry
Grab at my fat when I’m hungry
Use lipstick / lip balm
Count to 100 before a binge
When seriously hungry - chug a load of water
Celery is my friend

Beauty

Must always be perfect:
Nails
Hair
Eyebrows
Makeup
Outfits (clean, tidy, cute)
Shower every night and wash body and face well
Skincare every day
Always shaved legs, arms, armpits, and there
Never write on my body with pens
Smell good
Get enough sleep
Do not damage yourself

Hobbies

Read 30 mins a day
Keep on track with fandoms
Always listen to music or audiobooks when possible
Watch things when possible
Draw everyday
Be with pets a lot
Only watch good tv shows

How To Act

Always seem like you have everything together
Always be polite
Always be positive
Think it over before you speak
Always be kind
Always appear calm
Always have a smile ready
Do not complain
Never tell anyone about my problems
Reply to messages promptly if possible
Stay away from people when really depressed
Always stay busy
Don’t judge anyone
Don’t assume anything about people
Be nice to people
Help everyone out

Phone

Don’t waste time on Instagram
Turn messages off while studying or while talking to someone else
Use Tumblr a lot
Check all notifications
Reply to messages instantly if possible
Turn off messages and only listen to music/books an hour before sleep
Parents
Do what they say
Report what I’m doing/where I am if they want me to
Don’t tell them anything
Only talk if they ask
Be a perfect daughter
Don’t be rude

Socialising

Meet friends as often as possible
Call friends when you can
Be nice to everyone
Text people constantly
Take time to talk to people - show you care

Banned Foods

Cake
Brownies
Biscuits
Chocolate
Candy
Extra sauces
Syrup
Pie
White bread
Fast food
Ice cream
Cereal
Cheese
Chips
Donuts
Pizza
Crisps
Onion rings
Waffles
Muffins
Popcorn
Peanut butter
Pancakes
Buns

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⚠️ PSA: I do not promote eating disorders nor any type of destructive behaviours ⚠️

NEDA helpline: (800) 931-2237

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What goes on inside of my head…

I haven’t eaten anything in 13 hours
I barely eat, how am I still fat?
Is anyone else in this room bulimic?
Maybe I would look good in clothes if I wasn’t fat
I’m not thin enough to have an eating disorder…
I should look at more thinspo
Why does my face look so fat?
I just want to cry
Do I exist?
Wait so if I ate 346 calories today…
Did I drink enough water?
Should I binge
I’m never going to be thin
I bet she could be a model
Why did I binge the other day
I probably gained weight
I wish my face wasn’t so chubby
Would anyone care if I dissapeared?
I would have more freinds if I was skinny
My freinds eat all the shit they want and they’re still thin…
I should purge what I just ate
I should start a fast
My thighs are huge
Oh my god she’s so pretty
I wish I was as thin as her
Why are my boobs so small?
I’m hungry…
I should go drink some tea
Why do I look so bloated?
I am a mess
What even is the meaning of life?
There is no point
Maybe people will want to talk to me when i’m thin.
Food is like a drug
I should just starve

ana-hedone

⚠️ PSA: I do not promote eating disorders nor any type of destructive behaviours ⚠️

NEDA helpline: (800) 931-2237

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you’re not faking it. i’m not faking it. this is a real sickness. it’s chemical and biological. and it fucking sucks.

i’m here for you. i love you.

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